You've Been Warned.......

"In the world I see....you are stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center. You'll wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. You'll climb the wrist-thick kudzu vines that wrap the Sears Tower. And when you look down, you'll see tiny figures pounding corn, laying strips of venison on the empty car pool lane of some abandoned super-highway." - Chuck Palahniuk

"It is always simply a matter to drag the people along, whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. The people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the peacemakers for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in any country." - Hitler's propaganda chief Herman Goerring

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A long ass entry………..I just posted the previous page as well……………….

It’s been such a crazy busy 2 months, bitches!! There has been no time for writing or anything! I haven’t checked my MySpace nor have I written anyone in forever (bad girl, I am!). Too fucking busy.

December was more stressful than we had thought it’d be, but in the end it turned out ok. The kid did NOT get a $ store xmas!! The kid got an entire new room full of toys! It’s gonna take all week to probably bag up enough of her old stuff to make room for the new. Everything goes to the homeless shelter down the street & girlfriend has never given issue about that. She got 4 stuffed animals, 5 shirts, JLo necklace that’s silver w/ a bunch of starts hanging off (no bitches, I didn’t know it was JLo until we went to wrap it), 8 pairs of earrings, bracelet, diary, makeup, Pirates of the Caribbean stuff (movie, bracelet, calendar), purse, Sponge Bob magnet maker, coloring book, crayons, giant tape, fuzzy art stickers…, I took a pic she already drew and put it in a silver frame, 3 jigsaw puzzles…....I can’t even tell you what else & that’ s only covering what we got her. My parents went overboard even for them this year. Since our computer is still at their house, Dad was on one and Mom on the other and they just broke the bank. The highlights of stuff they got for her is a digital computer w/dock, Sponge Bob stuff (PS2 game, plug in game w/100 games on it, papasan chair), Littlest Animal stuff (2 pets in carrying case, petshop)………....the list goes on. We both were so fucking happy that the gifts the kid went the craziest over were ones we got her. It’s about damn time.

M&D did ok even tho they were quite stressed out. They invited Ms. Kim & her daughter along w/daughter’s boyfriend. My parents don’t handle these situations well, but I have to say I didn’t know they could get the house that clean! They made enough food to feel four armies and I had to sit right across from lil old Ms. Kim eating the neck bone!!!!!!! Wow. Baby & I were so ill went we got home from all the rich food! It was the first time in my life I didn’t wake up nor go to bed under the same roof as my parents on xmas. So weird, but wonderful. When we woke up xmas morning, I put on Tool & Marilyn Manson and we wake-n-bake’d!! Best part???? The kid and everything she got came home last night w/us!!!!!!!!! Baby got me a book called, “Gothic Magick” & Malcolm X. I got her Hellraiser III & a gothic calendar. We got my parents a beautiful & giant vase and picked out some dried plants and made them a piece of “home decor”. They really seemed to love it. They got us too much. We got a remote control kit for the ceiling fan, a Wolfgang Puck food processor, HUGE plier set for baby, & a bottle of Eternity for me. Baby felt so bad that when she ran out for pickle relish, she got them a 2 mug sets of Yorkie mugs (plus she got me a bottle of Ravenswood Merlot). It was a good day

Baby’s hand is still an ongoing saga that should never have happened. As of today it’s in it’s 3rd new splint & we have no idea when she will ever be free of this nightmare. She finally, FINALLY, got a Dr.’s appointment for her hand after over 2 months. She had to drive 3+ hours to Brandon b/c they claimed this was the only Dr. in the state that takes government health insurance. She drove up and he literally assaulted her. She said that he came into the room, and w/out looking at an x-ray, he clamped his thumb down on the injured knuckle and squeezed. HARD. She said he had a hold of her w/his other hand and she couldn’t get him off of her. She was screaming. 3 nurses had to come in and he literally had to be forced off of her. He kept telling her that nothing was wrong with her and her hand looks fine. After she got free he tells her that she needs absolutely nothing else done. Ever. He has been reported to the AMA & our attorney. She had to come all the way home and turn around and go back to the goddamn ER b/c by the time she got home, her ENTIRE FUCKING HAND WAS 2X’S TOO FUCKING BIG! We took pictures and you could see by the next morning the perfect bruise on her knuckle in the shape of his thumb. She’s still upset. It took me years to get her to be less afraid of Dr.’s. She’ll never get over this. I’m burning candles in the hopes of his slow & painful end. He deserves it.

We’ve all been dealing with the flu for the last month, which hasn’t helped anyone’s mood. I don’t know who got sick first, but everyone’s had it. Everyone. The flu & strep throat went thru my office. Baby, me, the kid, & even the fucking cat got the flu. Sadie is still recovering, but she seemed like her old self for the first time in weeks last night & this morning. I picked her up last night briefly and it tore my heart out to feel how much weight she’s lost. There is dried snot EVERYWHERE in the house. I haven’t seen anything like it since that cat had her last cold when she was a kitten. OMFG! Baby’s lost 30 pounds and I’ve gone down 5 entire sizes!! Jesus butt-fucking Christ. We have been praising the flu diet. Oh yes we have.

So what’s all of this about J, you ask? Oh my, oh my. I never thought I’d be the one to bring home other chicks, but I think it may happen. I met this girl my 1st day of work and have wanted her since, I must tell you. My company doesn’t have the time to run all of the prints for all of the thousands of plans we deal with, so we’ve hired a reprographics place a block over. Every day there’s jobs to be taken and brought back and 9 outta 10 times….....J comes. Baby finally met her on the 9th of this month at a house party (I’ll tell you more of that in a sec) & is a little wierded out by how much J looks like Baby. She’s a hockey player!! Tee hee!! Sooo gay. Where Baby is very dark (black hair, black clothes, leather), J is the light Jock version. More like how Baby looked a few years back. Hell…...a year ago. J’s lost a bit of weight since I first met her (thanx to her mother), but is still nice and thick, so she still looks mighty fine. We’ve always talked for a few mins whenever she’s come into work. Nothing big, but she’s real nice. For a long time she barely spoke and when she did, she turned beet red. Now she says she’s getting comments from her mother, husband, and another co-worker about how much time she stays over here and how quickly she runs back over here as soon as our print job is ready. Yes, she works for her mother. Lives 3 houses down from her mother. Married the alcoholic that her mother picked out for her & is now stuck w/him and a kid. She loves the boy, but hates the father & now he’s at work as well.

Her mother apparently throws a big shindig every xmas and I got invited this year. I almost didn’t go b/c I get so nervous and I knew I wouldn’t know anyone ‘cept for J and her mom. Baby dropped me off b/c I didn’t want any issue from her mom & it would affect my job happiness. I dressed to the 9’s in tight black velvet pants, burgundy blouse, low heels, silver choker, make-up, etc. I had to steal one of the kid’s purses! J still had her jeans on as always, but wore a nice black men’s button-down shirt. Sooo gay. She saw me as soon as I walked in the door and didn’t leave my side the ENTIRE night. OMG! Her husband got trashed and when baby came to get me (& I was saying good-bye in the house) he got her outta the car. She was not amused at 1st b/c she was in her home clothes. Ended up staying another hour. J ran her mouth like I didn’t know she could. We were both drunk. I hugged her. She ignored everyone else there! Husband wouldn’t leave baby alone and even pulled down his pants to show her his boxers!!! He didn’t think anyone noticed him getting into the beer cooler when J wasn’t looking. He didn’t think anyone noticed that he put the “non-alcoholic” beers in a cozy and peeled off the top label so you couldn’t see it. Poor J. Girlfriend gave me the low-down on everyone I work with and I am probably the most normal outta those fuckers!! I didn’t need to know all the details. You know, like who takes pictures of their manhood & who has a knee fetish! Oi. I have since found out that as soon as we left…..J & hubby get into big fight about her flirting w/me! I’m so fucking dense sometimes!!!

Ever since that night whenever J has come into my work, she stays at LEAST 30-45 min’s talking to me. Multiple times a day. I told Baby the 1st week after the party that it seemed like J was not only staying longer, but it seemed like she’d barely left w/our prints before she was already back dropping them off. J has since said that they’ve noticed this at her work as well! And the things she says to me!!!!!! Things like………..since the party she lies awake every night running scenarios thru her head about what could have happened (especially if we both had another drink!), she hasn’t had sex in 4 months, she needs sex bad, she’s never having sex w/her husband again, she’s really horny when she’s drunk, we have to go out drinking sometime (this one is mentioned every time I see her), she likes girls who look like me, husband is extremely jealous of me………..I could go on! She mentions sex every fucking time I talk to her now. Every time. Wow. Holy fucking shit!! This is a first for me all around. She invited me over to her work this past Friday after I got off work and she’s technically closed. Alone. Just so I could see her new nose ring that she got that morning, of course. Perfectly innocent. I went. She never touched me, but it was sooooooo nerve-racking!!! She knows about Baby & she knows that we’re swingers & she still hasn’t run away. She’s not my Baby, but she’s sooo hot!

Last, but not least, a total mind fuck from the past. Baby has apparently spoken via internet, at least some, to S. She sent us a wind chime and the kid a Build-a-Bear from xmas. Baby said that S asked for our address to send the kid something and she couldn’t say no to the kid getting a present, but she said she didn’t expect anything for us. I don’t even know how to work my brain around all of this, much less write a whole lot about it. I don’t know what course of action to take. She didn’t have a return address on the UPS box. I just don’t know.

Enough typing today, bitches.

3:59 p.m. - Tuesday, Dec. 26, 2006

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