You've Been Warned.......

"In the world I see....you are stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center. You'll wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. You'll climb the wrist-thick kudzu vines that wrap the Sears Tower. And when you look down, you'll see tiny figures pounding corn, laying strips of venison on the empty car pool lane of some abandoned super-highway." - Chuck Palahniuk

"It is always simply a matter to drag the people along, whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. The people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the peacemakers for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in any country." - Hitler's propaganda chief Herman Goerring

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Naked Lunch........................

Last night the kid stayed w/the grandparents & we decided to be spontaneous and go out. Like OUT. How horrifying it would be to say that we only went out once in 2006 (back on 6/6/6), right? We showered, shaved, cut hair, tried on all our clothes since none of them fit the same. I actually walked out of the house in a tight velvet skirt, tight shirt w/Super Cleavage going on, silver choker, & heels!! (all black of course)We drove an hour to Bradenton to Club Heat………….& the goth bar was taken over for the evening by a Trick Daddy concert!!! Yes, you heard me bitches…..Trick mother-fucking Daddy. We can still stay we went out twice this year, dammit.

Baby is FINALLY starting her shots again today. It won’t be the same MS injection, b/c that one literally almost killed her b/c of the liver damage & the heart issues it was causing. This new one is a daily injection instead of weekly, but the needle is the smallest kind made and b/c they’ve been fucking her around (surprise, surprise) for almost A YEAR on getting it to her…..they sent her a free injection gun that supposed to make it a snap to do the shots. It’s a $1,000.00 machine, so I’ll bitch a little less……..if I have too. :o) This one is also not supposed to have anywhere near the side effects that the other shot did, so hopefully she won’t be a shell of herself again. I missed her so much then. As much as I worried about the legions on her brain growing, I loved having the old baby back for a while. Unfortunately, she was off the injections so long that in the last month or 2 she hasn’t really been totally my baby anyway. The weight coming off has perked her up a great deal & J has made her perky and horny, so it’s still good! God I love my baby!!

Speaking of J………..Oh. My. Gawd. I was already nervous b/c I planned on stopping by her work today when I’m done. She told me earlier in the week that she’d be all alone in the office again, so I thought I’d try to work up the nerve to “casually” stop by & catch her off guard. You know, this way I’ll have the upper-hand & they go back to normal hours after this week so who knows when there’ll be another chance. Well, I got a text msg from her yesterday asking if I want to go out to lunch with her today after work!!!!!!!!! Damn butch women. Why are they so hot?? I bet she never thought I’d stop by otherwise. So now I AM TERRIFIED BEYOND ALL BELIEF at “doing lunch”. This will be the first time that we’ve been together outside of some work related environment. Even her mom’s xmas party was kindof a work thing and J’s mom & husband were there. Plus lotsa other people. I know we’ll be in a public restaurant, but still………….it’s gonna feel like I’m all alone w/her. So, I naturally had to wear tight jeans and a boob shirt today!! I’m so fucking nervous, bitches! This is new territory for me. Totally new. I wasn’t even nervous about going out last night b/c this is completely pre-occupying my nerves. Baby couldn’t be perkier at the whole thing & I had to be out of the house for a while anyhow b/c the nurse is coming over to give the first injection and I do not do those kinds of needles. Uh-uh.

Oh god, bitches! I’m gonna be ill. It’s been so long since I’ve had a friend. It’s been so long since someone made me feel the least bit attractive. J has no idea what she’s already doing for our sex life!